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there is something inside of me thats not fully satifsfied.
there is an emptiness just waiting to be filled.
with what i dont really know.
memories been hitting me like gunshots today.
but with nice and beautiful memories
from the best days of my life.
is that whats creating all this emptiness?
that them days have past and the fact
that i miss them so much.
the fact that i compare the present with the past?
its just screaming inside of me to leave.
go where i belong.
go to the place i think of every minute of the day.
to the place where i feel ...home.
why am i not there?
where is there constant fear of failing coming from?
the belief in self.
where is it?
is it missing or was it not even there so start with?
where is this spontanous me?
the girl that dropped the world to get on the plan and follow her guts?
my heart is missing u.
my body is screaming your name.
my mind is running but my legs are paralysed.
i am afraid.
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